Excessive much?

I've chewed about twenty-five different places in my mouth... it's bleeding bad. i had stopped that habit, but its back now. what am I to do? im depressed. Schwa had stated we'd talk today, i havent seen any sign of him being on. why is it so hard to let go? why cant i just walk away without hurting? -falls onto bed face first- im done... im getting sick, and yes, really sick. i've vomited about ten times today, my fever is 104.1 and im sweating cold sweat yet i feel so hot... then the pains that shoot up my spine.... like icy hot knives branding their marks into my flesh. i feel terrible. i look terrible... not even a shower helped.